For most of this month I've been grappling with what to write beyond the title of the next post. I'm positive it's a good title, 'In Search of Doubt" but the good words to accompany such a title led me all over the map. Have you ever had that happen to you in the midst of writing? Maybe it's for another time. Yes, another time will have to do.
Lost in thought, as I often am, this thought struck me, "I'm sure I lost the will to live a long time ago and one of the reasons I haven't dropped dead yet is an equally strong will to prove myself wrong." So that's where I'm at today; actively proving myself wrong. There's probably a hint of proving others wrong, too, but that's not really a priority. Truth be told those others are merely whispers in the wind that have little bearing on my direction.
Not far behind that thought was the memory of a conversation I had with my nephew, Timothy. Yesterday he was sharing with me some of the things he has been learning in church. The most significant thing he told me was Jesus loves you. A simple truth from the mouth/heart of a four year old babe. He spoke to me about John the Baptist and how Jesus lives in your heart. I must admit things got a little weird when he told me that while you sleep God opens your mouth and puts your heart inside but, hey, he's four!
He wasn't concerned about doctrine. He didn't even know the full story of John the Baptist... but he got me out of my head and concern over how I might share the Gospel. Everyone has their theory, you know? Jesus loves you that's the Good News. Like I said, simple truth and delivered at the exact time I needed to hear it. Everyone needs to hear it. The circumstances of life will change on a dime but the truth that Jesus loves you never will.
Jesus loves you.
That's the best thing I could ever write for this blog- Jesus loves you. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, it is high, I cannot attain to it. (Psalm 139:6) Maybe that is the search for doubt- the too wonderful knowledge that Jesus loves me. The fact that I cannot attain to it doesn't change the fact of the truth of His love.
Jesus loves you right now as you are. Receive it. Believe it. Accept it. As I type I am telling myself deal with it! Now that I think about it, there's nothing to prove. Jesus proved it all on the cross- His love that is and by His resurrection the proof is living in the hearts of men today. It's not my will that matters anyway but His absolutely does. His will is being manifested in me and through me as I yield to the words of a four year old, "Jesus loves you."
Indeed He does.
Jesus loves you.
